Studio Blog #2
Giving of my authentic self is a relief and the truest gift I can offer.
I've always been an artist, but admitting to yourself and embracing the fact you're but an educated and trained vessel here on Earth to express a message in color and form is a humbling moment.
Imagine how at first, you're the local school celeb because you can draw and paint. Then you find this special talent is coupled to your core so that if you're not creating something you suffocate. Eventually you learn your best work happens when you let yourself go and succumb to your Muse, your special connection to the Universe, through color and form. It's like an addiction except it's not because this is spiritually uplifting, not a spiritual stagnation. And if you go deep enough into it and express your feelings when you create, you can eventually look back at the trail of art you made and you see it's your biography.
Many years ago, maybe 15 or 20, I opened my arms wide and looked up to the sky and said, "I'll do whatever it is you want! I give up trying to think my way into the best situation. I'll stay open and pay attention to inspired thought or an answer to a question."
Planning and hard work; trying to figure stuff out works only takes you so far. There's always some unexpected block or twist that weighs things down, derails the train, shows you a truth you weren't expecting. But when your plan is one of Inspiration and you step into the flow where all you have to do is pay attention for the next step, the ride is fast, smooth, and goes somewhere you could not have imagined.
That's the lesson I keep repeating. When I think I know what's going on, beyond the technical aspects, is the times when everything slows down and may even grind to a halt. I now know those are the times to step back, take a breath, and let my Muse, Spirit, the Universe come back into the front because I can't see what's next anyway. I simply wait for the call and be ready to grab on and take the next ride.